Thursday, August 17, 2017

Lurch


What would you like to be doing, wouldn't you like to be auditing and software training?

No.

So what's next. You just had a birthday.

What I'd like to be doing is writing. And knitting when I'm not writing. And going to movies in the afternoon. Daughter gave me a loaded movie card.

There's not much money in writing.

Yeah, I know. Or knitting for that matter. That's why I need to sell my house. Then I can write.

So what are you doing to facilitate that?

I listed my house for sale. I took stress leave from my municipal time-consuming, enraging position. I backed away completely from stifling, drunken massive social events. I spaced my PGs a little better, gapped out some time for myself.
And yeah, I forgot to mention, I'm lying down for an hour in the afternoon. It's a brilliant revitalizer.

But you're not happy?

No. I'm easily irritated. I'm impatient. I'm snarky. I can't believe the world is not going along with my intention for a peaceful, blissful, last few years: Nazism? Ku Klux Klan without the masks? Anti Fa? (aren't most decent human beings?) In your face racism. Worst forest fires ever in BC? Domestic terrorism in the U.S.? And need I mention the occasional occupier of the White House?

I wish this lonely wee planet would get its act together and its useless and vile janitors thrown off it.

Maybe then I might be happy.

As if.






20 comments:

  1. I hear you...Any interest in the house? Happy Belated Birthday! I'm just about to get my kitchen back after ten weeks! then the place gets painted and re-floored (sigh, maybe another five weeks?)

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  2. I hear your pain, I've been reading about your lost fridges, etc. How challenging and frustrating. The house just went on the market so fingers crossed.

    thanks for the bday wishes.

    XO
    WWW

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  3. strange as it may sound - I am happy-very happy when family visits
    and they are not near so this is limited, birthdays, holidays and
    once in a while a special visit.
    happy but do not like a lot - most I did cannot or difficult at this time - no big health issues just arthritis and a colon problem but told if I do not accept it stress will make me have a stroke....
    it is less expensive for me to stay in this home with limited help - then selling, more down scaling and relocating - everything I have checked is so expensive
    returning to this property was a lifetime dream
    I do not like that I am told I may live a long long time.
    Now 82 and sure do not want to be around in my 90's and cannot
    do anything but still a good mind. Ready to go....
    Everything fine for a few more years and then will not be able
    to stay here and hate to put the burden on my two youngest of
    doing all that is necessary plus where to put me :)

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    1. It is cheaper for me to relocate, Ernestine. I was on awaiting list for a while for independent senior living apartment (cheap).I can have home help come in when and if I need it. So this has worked out so much better for me.

      Each of us finds our own solutions to aging. None of us escapes it. And who knows the end may be sooner than we think with this terrible unrest in the world.

      XO
      WWW

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    2. US politics seems to be going completely mad. And UK politics isn't far behind. Too many sensible, intelligent people have decided contemporary politics is not a great career option and they've settled on more civilised choices.

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    3. Any politics takes its toll. It did on me. But yes, we're all gone to hell in a handbasket lately. More and more frightening.

      XO
      WWW

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  4. Belated birthday greetings, WWW. I hesitated to make that a simple "Happy birthday" because you've written that you are not (happy) so my puny wish would be quite unlikely to make you so, in fact it possibly could make you feel worse. Another go-around the Sun is all it amounts to anyway.

    Speaking of the Sun - the solar eclipse on Monday, in late Leo might, symbolically, represent a darkness becoming light again, and lift your mood a little. I do wish that for you.

    I sometimes think that ancient peoples had the right idea in having their extensive platform of gods - one for every eventuality - towards whom praise or blame for most things in life could be aimed. It'd have been an easy outlet for so many frustrations and uncomfortable emotions.

    Writing (and you are so darn good at it) is your valuable outlet and comforter.

    As for the gathering madness that surrounds us now:

    "....the world is rather bad and extremely difficult and all you can do is the best you can."
    (Dodger - by Terry Pratchett)

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    1. Thank you for the good wishes T. I'm in good shape today. Distances from stressors and just being with myself. It's all good.

      XO
      WWW

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  5. Dear WWW, I should know by now - I take it you are a leo. Neither too late to wish you a better twelve (and beyond) months than the last lot.

    As to your assessment of the world - I myself am trying to keep a lid on my despair. Mainly because when I get upset my stomach turns, my gaze to the next available vessel, say, the loo, lest I'll be sick. As starvation diets go the world in crisis does me fine, loosing all appetite. Not that I need to lose weight. And I love food (both to cook and to eat).

    Makes you think - there we are, procreating in good faith, only to then fear for future generations after we have snuffed it. Obviously we won't know what comes after the ark but they will. At the moment I still subscribe to best case scenario in absence of anyone passing me smelling salts. My dear dear WWW, grasp the fleeting moments of personal happiness; something you seem to be able to.

    As to writing and knitting? Best not to do either with an eye on profit. Enjoying the activity will do. After all, Mozart died in poverty, buried in a pauper's grave. I am sure that last observation will cheer you up no end. Sorry.

    Big hug,
    U

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    1. Thanks Ursula. No I never have an eye on profit when it comes to my creative bliss. The money from the house (hopefully) will keep me in needles and keys until I kick off this mortal coil.

      Yes, the young 'uns, at least the ones I know, are busy travelling the entire globe. They are not intent on breeding or corporatizing themselves. They know far more than we will ever, I think. And want to help when their pathways become clearer.

      XO
      WWW

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  6. HAPPY BELATED BDAY WWW. And don't you have all kinds of gifts to be happy for at your age...mobility (even when painful),you can eat without too much droolin' it is assumed....and you recognize those you've known for years and years and aren't greetin' em like you're meeting them for the first time...so hey things are lookin' up and the world out there will always hold it's considerable charms and beauty for us humans no matter how low we get as a species...she keeps keeping on and I know you will too. Like a TIMEX watch you'll "take a lickin' and keep on knittin'" ahahaha LOL :D Keep on writing kid as your words are my weekly smile cracker :)Ta ta for now!

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    1. Weekly smile cracker, oh that's good. I aim to please. No, last time I checked I wasn't drooling, then again it depends on what I'm eating. Butter chicken, fresh cod out of the water with scrunchions.

      Yes, I do count my blessings.

      XO
      WWW

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  7. Belated Happy Birthday! Hope your house sale goes well and within reasonable time. Times now filled with many troublesome events, but I'm convinced "this too shall pass" as we've seen so many challenges in our lives and our country. I know when we cope with health issues this can be discouraging -- daily life often seems bleaker when I don't feel well, raising all sorts of questions in my mind -- issues in our country, plus those around the world, offer little solace. And yet.....I can't let go of the expectation that everything will eventually be better -- if only I'll be patient.

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    1. Yes, Joared when I'm hungry, angry, lonely or tired (HALT)it all seems more hopeless. Today was an action day and when that happens I don't have time to brood on how awful everything is.

      Action rather than reaction. Keep my little corner tidy.

      XO
      WWW

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  8. You are a jewel. Your blog posts are a treasure. I found your blog at just the right time in my life. Wishing you all the peace and happiness the world can offer. Please don't stop posting!

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  9. You have done all that could possibly done to get to doing what you would like to do. The one thing over which you don't have control is the time factor in some of the things like selling your house. Way to go. And as now a days they say, Stay Calm And Drink Coconut Water.

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  10. I think I'm a pretty happy person. But the current state of the world (the blatant racism and misogyny and xenophobia) scare the hell out of me.

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  11. We are stuck living in the times we live in!

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  12. Things will be better when you move Wise. You might want to think about an annuity? Or maybe you are? I bought one when I sold my last condo and it is the best financial move I ever made - unless interest rates truly skyrocket I will be able to pay a decent rent for as long as I live even if I live to be 110! Good luck with the sale of your house. 🍀

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  13. I can't let go of the expectation that everything will eventually be better -- if only I'll be patient.


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