Friday, July 30, 2021

Etcetera



 I was in my happy place (see above photo) in a welter of gratitude having been told an hour earlier that I didn't have cancer. Mind you this was after endless and often painful and exhausting tests. 

There was a long string of boats bobbing in the water which reminded me I should be carrying my "real" camera in the car and not this inadequate Android camera phone. It doesn't do the scene justice.

I still haven't found the "normal" run of myself but maybe that's now lost in the mists of time past. I do dream about "normal" at night. Much of it involving massive effortless hikes in the brilliant scenery and seascapes around these parts. I hate waking up with the threads of such dreams still befogging me like gentle spider webs.



I picked up this little shelf sculpture in Red Bay, (see above) where the graveyards of all the whales massacred in the time of the whale-oil industry for lamps and bones for corsets is a moving scene on the shore.

This place is so isolated and under-visited that the birds have a great time on the "killing fields" above, feeding on the sea urchins and shedding feathers. I thought these were perfect examples of the beauty of sea urchins and treasure the memories they hold. I was grateful for my racing red wheelchair that Grandgirl pushed so expertly through the paths and sometimes helpful boardwalks.


And isn't that what life is all about, finding the slivers of gratitude, often minuscule, but there amongst the ordinariness of it all if we look for them.

 

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  1. Yes, it is about gratitude. Love your blog.

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  2. Yay for no cancer! Noy you have to crawl out from under the black cloud. It takes getting used to. Lots of suinshine and starry nigth for you I hope!

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    1. Coming into the sunshine and gratitude is incredible. I find it hard to find words Charlotte.

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  3. Glad to hear you don't have cancer.

    Will we ever regain the "normal" run of ourselves, I wonder? Life has changed in so many ways because of covid I'm beginning to forget what "normality" felt like.

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    1. So very true Nick. So many factors bearing on the old "normal". I guess we can never take for granted all the joys of "beforetimes" now that we recognise they it can all swiftly vanish!

      I know I am changed forever.

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  4. Always good to not have cancer ��

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    1. That was a grinning emoji that just did not work.

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    2. Funny how the emoticons vary from country to country and don't transmit that successfully. I share your grin.

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  5. I want to walk along that path towards the water.
    Hooray for no cancer :)

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    1. Magical isn't it River? I never wanted to leave.

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  6. You have given my tears, of joy, of course.

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    1. Aww, thanks Joanne. I know we monitor each other's health conditions carefully. We become quite precious to each other in this world of ether :)

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  7. What a relief that must have been! Glad you're out from under that threat.

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  8. Congratulations on the big C coming out as negative. Good that you had this refreshing outing.

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    1. Thanks Ramana. I'm not out of the jungle of healthcare yet but I feel I am getting closer to "normal" albeit an aging normal.

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    2. Ageing normal any day better than being sub or abnormal.

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  9. Wonderful, no cancer.
    You have been given the gift of life once again.
    Grab this life, whatever comes, and live it to it's fullest.
    At least you have those memories to travel to,of being free and doing the things that were in your dreams at the time and now are real dreams to do them all again.

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    1. Yes, climbing out from under this dreadful emotional cloud along with the physical. I feel incredibly fortunate in my health care (all free) and the number of specialists that are involved. I never felt like a number but a valued patient. And right now we are working on the blood thingie and my BP which is still horribly low but we're getting there.

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    2. How can you have the correct blood pressure being low on blood?

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    3. To my knowledge my chronic anaemia has nothing to do with the BP. I had unknowingly lost a great deal of weight which necessitated a reduction in my BP meds.

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  10. Haven't walk down a board walk like that.
    Coffee is on and stay safe

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    1. Quite an experience - the tough part is ascending, LOL

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  11. Those slivers of gratitude are precious - and I believe they grow when you acknowledge/recognise/see them. Hooray for no cancer too.

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    1. And some days I have a hard time finding them but they are well worth looking for EC!

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  12. The slivers of gratitude keep me going. Lovely photos. So glad you don't have cancer!

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    1. Thank you E, it was an underlying worry amongst all the procedures I had to undergo. Now it looks like we only have the low BP and the misbehaving blood and the blindish eye to worry about :D

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  13. I am just so happy that you don't have cancer. What a relief! So, you and I both have trouble with walking and being the way we used to be when we were young. So, just adjust to the new normal. Take care and God bless.

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    1. Adjusting can be difficult at times as I live alone and hate asking for help. Not just the walking but the getting about and grocery pickups, laundry, etc. And let's not forget pain.

      But thank you.

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  14. Welcome news for you and my friend here heard, too, with the results of her blood tests as she continues with her hormone therapy to counter breast cancer.

    You and I may well be in the same boat, living alone, limiting mobility, unwelcome pain -- adapting can be challenging from one day to the next. Gets more complicated when no family around and friends are gone. I know what you're experiencing. Despite all, I still prefer living in place in my home and welcome each new day. Wishing you all the best!

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    1. Yes, I do count my blessings more frequently, Joared and enjoy independent living as much as I am able. I do have Daughter an hour and half away. Grandgirl has now gone back to Ontario after 3 months here which was wonderful. I'm also blessed with Niece who lives in the same area. Many in my building have no local family members.

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  15. Who even knows what normal is anymore. But I'd say finding out you don't have cancer is a huge good thing to be grateful for. And then beyond that, yes, noticing all the small things, too.

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