I don't see many oldies writing about depression so I'm punching down on the keys here today and writing about my visits from the Black Dog.
He's been away more years than I can count and I have written about him before which I will link to later.
My PHC, who is pretty terrific, marked all the stuff going on with me yesterday and ordered lab work on new criteria one of which was B12. Not often done so special requisition.
Then she said: I can put you in touch with a therapist if you are dealing with depression.
Now I seriously had not added depression to my list of issues and I gaped slack jawed at her (further convincing her, no doubt, that I was definitely in the dark clutches of it.) I managed to sputter "Hang on a minute here, I'm NOT suicidal."
So I check in with Dr. Google on the symptoms to refresh myself
- continuous low mood or sadness.
- feeling hopeless and helpless.
- having low self-esteem.
- feeling tearful.
- feeling guilt-ridden.
- feeling irritable and intolerant of others.
- having no motivation or interest in things.
- finding it difficult to make decisions.