Thursday, May 16, 2013

No Time for Nerves



You know the way of it with something important coming up. The nerves take over a bit. Well maybe not for you. But certainly for me. Especially for public speaking. But only if given lead-time. Catch me by the seat of my pants and interview me on TV, so to speak, and off the cuff, I'm grand, just grand.

But I've been so busy over the last few weeks, there hasn't been a minute to fret and worry and construct and tear down the debut of the SeanchaĆ­ this weekend. Not to mention the thousands of "what ifs". I scheduled an hour for all that yesterday. I was in the city getting the car serviced and alloted the time between 6 and 7 pm for all that mulling while I rounded a "pond" (i.e. lake in any other corner of the world) on my daily constitutional. But it started to get mauzy, in that way of St. John's and there was a lot of business with the hood and and the zipper and keeping the socks dry and then I had to talk to the widower swan that everyone's paying attention to. He's an angry soul by the name of Oscar and attacks all who try to feed him and then there's his whining babies, the wee cygnets, swimming about. He is completely stressed out, what with the dayjob, the kids and the grief. So by the time I got back to the car, very damp, I realized I hadn't done any stressing myself. Ripped off by selfish Oscar.

And then the work, and a few calls and emails and today is just about shot as I have to be out of here by 5.45 to do some pro-bono work up the road. I say up the road, which is a laugh here. 20km is up the road. So I'm going to allocate 15 minutes in the car to stress and to worry and to fuss about Saturday night.

I'll let you know how that works out. I'm way overdue a good fretting session.

16 comments:

  1. You'll be grand. Did you hear me? I said YOU WILL BE GRAND!

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  2. Another Grand
    and wonderful added :)
    Woman at the edge of the woods
    has lived a lot of lives and
    she knows...

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  3. Go on, go on.....spoil yourself. Have a good fret!

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  4. I know the feeling. I do plenty of fretting myself. It seldom achieves anything but I'm powerless to switch it off.

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  5. GM:

    Thanks. I wish I had your faith. I'm envisioning, a roomful of drunk, tipsy on their fourth bottle of wine, shouting at me or worse, talking and laughing with each other!

    XO
    WWW

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  6. OWJ

    I will hang on to your faith in me in my hour of trembling "what have I done now"s.

    XO
    WWW

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  7. Nick:
    usually I wear the world like a loose garment but performance anxiety keeps lurking behind my eyeballs. I truly hate this feeling...
    XO
    WWW

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  8. I love this tale of the stressed out swan.
    Good luck on your coming appearance.

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  9. Hattie:

    Poor nasty Oscar! The city maintenance people have their trials with him as when they are doing the path maintenance he launches attacks on them that have them running for cover!

    thanks for the good wishes!

    XO
    WWW

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  10. Super! I have a terrible time playing music in front of people, and keep setting myself up to do it. I was wondering if I could borrow your irascible swan.

    Oh, and good luck. The Moth radio theater, next?

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  11. That's tonight? Fingers crossed and cheering you on.....You'll be grand!

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  12. Well, as always, I'm the last to comment and the show's all over and you're either a favorite for the next 'Newfoundland's Got Talent' or you were turfed out on your ear and ended up on your arse in a muddy roadside ditch. My guess is undoubtedly the former, so I'll just say, "Well done!" There was never a shadow of doubt but you'd be a great hit.

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  13. Murr:
    I only wish :) but lately I've learned to say "enough."
    It is always enough. For the moment in it.
    XO
    WWW

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  14. Ah Molly, a stor, thank you for your support and good wishes. It was grand. You'd have loved it.
    XO
    WWW

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  15. RJA:

    My readers' faith in me far exceeds mine!

    Thank you!

    XO
    WWW

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