Friday, June 05, 2015

Small Things=Huge Things

On a walkabout yesterday

I spent some time yesterday with clients. We're working on a mystery dinner theatre project. A whodunit in which all the guests take part with pre-written scripts and characters. It's fun. They'd also bought a significant quantity of my cards last summer. I take photos around the bay area, write a piece of poetry for the back of the card and this is all wrapped up with an envelope and cellophane and can be used for any event: birthday, anniversary, thank you, even in some cases sympathy. How thrilled was I when they reordered cards as they'd sold out.

Mein host had been ill, a few surgeries performed a couple of years ago triggered by massive scar tissue buildup from a poorly performed appendectomy when he was a child. It leaves him with pain ridden days interspersed with surprisingly "normal" days. There's nothing that can be done. And he was to watch everything he eats.

He said to me: "I wake up every day and my first thought is: I am grateful I don't have cancer."

After our meeting I did a walkabout with my camera, ruminating on what he'd said.. My first thought was: I am grateful I can walk again.

Being on my previous medication I couldn't. My "eye" was also back. When my brain and body were so deeply affected by that drug I saw beauty nowhere. Now, I see beauty everywhere. I took many pictures yesterday and thought of the bones of a poem for one.

I live in magnificence out here on the Edge. Around every corner there is another breathtaking sight.

I had dreamed of a life like this, many, many years ago. It is far beyond my expectations, as my dream just wasn't big enough.

As I write this, I look outside and see the goldfinches dancing in the pines on the beach.

I am with them.





19 comments:

  1. Have a wonderful day! It looks gorgeous there and I'm glad you're back to appreciating it. I'm heading out the door for a day in production at the news office, but saw your blog had risen to the top of my list on the page, and HAD TO see what you had to say today. Now I really AM going ... .

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  2. Aren't you sweet (and supportive) to read me so quickly. Yes, it's like a rebirth after months of "performing" when I felt so rotten.
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  3. So many drugs cause depression. Glad the color has returned to your world.

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  4. To temporarily lose that eye for beauty must have been more devastating than losing the ability to walk, especially if you weren't sure whether the loss was temporary: spoken by someone who doesn't do too well with walking some days.

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  5. GM:
    It's' like a rebirth. I really "get" now why Daughter is so very pharmaphobic.
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  6. Linda, absolutely. It was like I was blinkered. I just couldn't "see". An alien personality took over.
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  7. I only just found your blog and have been reading back through some posts where I came across Ansa having trouble with her joints (limping). My elderly dog was getting very bad on his feet, could hardly raise himself off the floor and was whining in pain at imes. Heavy-hearted, I took him to the vet . . . . and he was prescribed Metacam. Oh my word, it's a Miracle Drug! I want some to help my painful knees! My dog has shed years, nolonger in pain and is enjoying his walks again - a very happy dog indeed. Could Ansa be helped by this medication, I wonder? I hate to see a dog in pain.

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  8. Glad to know the new medication is without the drastic side-effects and it's "business as usual".

    Indeed, even if you have some painful condition, it helps to reflect that you've been spared something far far worse.

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  9. Morning lovey! Just going out with the fella and the dog to explore the perimeter of our part of The Edge! You and I share so many joys. I'm doing a mystery evening here. It will be a first for yhe community but I've done about 90 of them, having had a company in Halifax for 26 years.

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  10. I like your host / friend's attitude. I think that I can make that my mantra too.

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  11. Thank you Rambler, and welcome! I haven't taken Ansa to a vet in a while due to her being on prescription she didn't need. It put me off. Her low dose seems to keep her without pain as she's not whining and sleeping and eating really well. I will keep Metacam in mind. Thanks!
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  12. Nick:
    So far so good. Next visit to doc will tell if it's doing the job it's supposed to be doing.
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  13. Jan:
    Wow! I learn a wee bit more about you! I'll be keen to hear how your mystery event goes!
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  14. Ramana:
    Giving you a mantra, now that's something :)
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