Monday, October 31, 2016

Down the Rabbit Hole


Happy New Year in the old Irish tradition.

It was like that for a while. Black Dog weather. There are advantages to having the old BD by my side. I brutally edited some of my own work. It's the best place to be for this writer. Of course I isolated and had the misfortune to share with a good friend over lunch who left me far worse off than the condition she found me in.

At the end of this bleak weak I forced myself out the door to get some groceries and on my way back another friend called, intuiting I'd lost the run of myself, and said he's meet me for fish and chips at our local pub. He's one of those great listening guys who never offers solutions, he just listens, dredges up some similarities in his own life and offers comfort. They're a rare breed these friends.

He left me far better off than the condition he found me in.

Isn't that life though.

I find accumulation of challenges and downswings and disappointments and worries press down on me so hard at times that I sink further into the hole with very little encouragement.

The loss of Ansa has been terrible. I've been trying to be a pillar for my friend who lost her daughter. The mess next door and the loss of 100s of more trees weighs heavily. And I'm waiting on some more medical tests to sort out some baffling health issues which have impacted my mobility. I've lost interest in my community, which is understandable, I suppose, as measures were never taken in the past to implement and enforce a town plan and zoning.

The bright side is that I entered two pieces in a competition, I saw a wonderful show (a treat from Daughter)on Saturday which had us both gasping for breath we were laughing so hard. I can't remember when I last laughed like that.

And Grandgirl has suggested, and strongly, that the three of us hoof off some time in the spring together to celebrate the completion of her undergrad and her stellar academic year.

Something to look forward to.

Like the Old Man said.

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  1. I think celebrating with grand girl is the best idea...I'm glad you've re-surfaced and I hope all things will become clear with time. That show looked divine...

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    1. Time the great healer E. Thanks for your encouraging words and I hope you surface soon.take care my friend.
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  2. Oh wonderful Cathy Jones. It was her I thought of to send you the link to the NFB film about 96 yr old Mabel the Nova Scotia hairstylist. Mabel and her friends will cheer you up.

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    1. Thanks Anon. I adored Mabel so much I posted it on FB.
      Daughter and I fantasised about a combined Cathy and Sandra Shamus show. We're trying to bring Sandra to NL.
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  3. I love the irish language. Wherever I am in the world I can look at my passport and read that I was born at the end of harvest - deareadh fothar - spelling may be wrong as it actually says DFO, with a fada.( Sorry,seeing the word Samhain set me off.) xxx

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    1. Me too Anne though I rarely get to read/speak it now. The word s for the seasons are so much more meaningful tied as they are to the natural world rather than gods of old.
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  4. My inspiration for what it is worth.

    "The game has its ups and downs, but you can never lose focus of your individual goals and you can't let yourself be beat because of lack of effort."
    ~ Michael Jordan

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  5. Or the up times are all the sweeter because of the down times....๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ˜‰
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  6. So glad to see you're back here! I check in every day to see how you are/what is up in your part of the world. So many changes at once; a lot to deal with it. Your granddaughter is so right...important to have something to look forward to.

    Side note: Have you see a documentary called Older Than Ireland? I have seen pieces of it. Looks very good; coming to the US but I don't think the Cleveland, Ohio, area will be lucky enough to have it.

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    1. Thanks Elle, I haven't seen the doc yet The library are attempting to get it for me. Would love to see it!

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  7. Thinking of you
    Kept checking
    keep sharing
    you are special...

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    1. So are you Ernestine!

      Sometimes it's hard to fire up the blog cylinder when things go south.

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  8. Life seems full of ups and downs, swings and roundabouts.
    There always seems to be a silvery lining when we least expect it, though. Someone might listen or give us comfort in some way.
    I hope you find some silvery linings and feel better soon. Having something to look forward to next year, will help, I'm sure.
    Maggie x

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    1. Yes Maggie and a chat with the Grandgirl tonight sure lifted my spirits.

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  9. Sounds like you are on the roller coaster. I've been there. Hope the ride gets smoother soon.
    XX00

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