Tuesday, March 18, 2025

Losing the Run of Myself

It happens.

A combination of many issues and challenges.

Mainly an additional injury to my back.

Followed by my going off a medication I didn't believe was that essential.

And oh my god on that as the consequences had me nearly hospitalized AGAIN.

Followed by my incessant doom scrolling.

Followed by ceasing to read blog-mates' blogs.

Followed by lack of sleep.

Followed by hermitizing myself due to mobility issues.

Followed by cabin fever.

Followed by a massive pity party.

I'm peeping above the parapet today. And daring to get upright in the process.

Gratitude list.

Music - Daughter converted me to Spotify (what a dream!) so am abandoning my Ipod which served me well for over 10 years.

Flowering plants everywhere in my home.

Good immersive books.

A marvellous season of great streaming series which are distracting me from my own misery.

A beautiful photo taken by one of my brothers on his hike yesterday in West Cork. Off in the distance you can see the Fastnet Rock Lighthouse, the last piece of land seen by the Titanic on its way to the U.S. An extraordinary piece of engineering.



I'll get around to reading all your blogs soonest. I'm sure you've all been prolific ⌨ 👀💓.

 




28 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear you were going through so much misery. I'm very glad you're finding things that make you feel better. I've missed your wise words.

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    1. Thankyou Sheila. I honestly felt I had nothing of any worth to say. Pain traps us in our own stinking thinking.
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  2. Very glad to see your post! I hope you’ll be having Sunny weather and blue skies that always makes an uplift for us. Best wishes from Sandra in BC

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    1. Thank you Sandra. Lovely weather out here on the Rock, hardly any snow this winter. Backatcha on the good wishes!
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  3. Your words make me sad because I feel your pain and misery throught the cracks ... and happy because you're back, on the slow way up with the spring sun, same as me.
    I wish you well and sunny days ahead in your beautiful corner of the world.

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    1. Thanks Charlotte, I'l get around to reading all the blogs soon. It is amazing how misery creates a cloud of extra misery isn't it?
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  4. The lighthouse is certainly interesting. The seas must get amazingly rough at that location. As always, it is nice to see you return after an absence.

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    1. Thank you Andrew, it's good to be back, blogging is part of my DNA at this stage of the old life business. it lifts me to see others' posts.
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  5. I was just starting to worry, WWW. Happy to see you back, quill in hand.

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    1. Thanks RJA. Life can be pretty uncertain as we age, you've been part of my bloglife for ages now. Long may we rock this road together!
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  6. I kept looking for a new post from you, anxious that all might not be well. It sounds like you have had quite a run of "the downs", as my mother would say. I am glad to see you back, taking stock, acknowledging what was and looking forward again.

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    1. Tilted a little over the edge, Sue, and getting into that hopeless mode. But life is as we make it, I know, but sometimes it's really hard to see the sunlight.
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  7. So glad to finally see a post from you. Life can get hard as we age, but you’ve got the right attitude. Love to know a few of your favorite shows on streaming. I particular like the British ones. BritBox and Acorn TV. Mary

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    1. Thank you Maryxx The Pitt is brilliant, also Severance. Bancroft on Britbox was a treat if you're into crime thrillers. Best Interests on Acorn was also great.
      Yes these aging challenges can take us by surprise. I have absolutely no idea how my back was further injured. Baffled.
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  8. I do apologise for not noticing you weren't posting or commenting. I've been caught up in stuff myself I guess. I take it you began taking the medication again that you thought you didn't need?

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    1. Yes River and Daughter has me reporting to her every day that I am. Like a misbehaving child. Which I am.
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  9. It happens to us all, welcome back to blogland, hope all will be well with you now.

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    1. Getting weller Chris. 😉A slow process. Thanks!
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  10. It's good to see you back :)
    Isn't it interesting how sometimes we have a great deal of difficulty doing things we know will help us

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    1. Inner rebel or something like that Chris. This particular med I have to drink and it's like drinking mud. It's like biting into a mud puddle and having to ingest. But I'm doing it now like a very good girl.
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  11. There you are! I was worried. You've had such a hard go lately. Me too, in a different way -- the hard goes of my loved ones. Dad gone, sister-law gone, sister damn near gone; all since November. If the latter had happened, I would still be on the floor. The way you keep getting up off it inspires me.

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    1. Oh Kylie I am so very sorry. I'm still getting over the loss of my brother who died just a few days after I nearly died in the hospital. November was a horrible month. It all hurts so very deeply doesn't it?
      Big hug to you
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  12. Like others I clicked on your blog each day but thought you were taking a regular break; I'm so sorry you've been having such a tough time.
    Being older is no joke as contemporary friends fall away - 5 funerals in 5 months here.
    I really hope you can get that pain under control one way or another - it colours a whole day and be quite exhausting.
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    1. For sure YS, it colours everything. I was losing the will. Just lurching through the days with every single thing a huge effort. Exhausting doesn't quite cover it and then the sleepless nights like you're losing what's left of the braincells.
      I'm being kind to myself right now and one of these kindnesses is blogging and reading the blogs of others.
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  13. I'm so sorry for your time of malaise and discontent. This is a very difficult time in all of our history. No matter where one lives or what one does or who they see and speak with, there is not much cheer. I find mine in bits and bobs, like right now, as I read and respond, I am eating a warm cinnamon roll just from the oven, Later today I will go see the first graders at Columbia and my psyche will get a bit of a lift that I am doing something positive. It's a hard time, be gentle on yourself.

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    1. Thanks Delaine for uplifting me. Yes, the news of your trashed White House is dispiriting and awful. He is a real and dangerous threat to Canada and our new alliances are pulling away from the US. You all must be terrified of his next step to complete dictatorship. I have many US friends you are absolutely devastated at the collapse of all the values they held dear. Yes, the wee ones can save our sanity.
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  14. It's made my day to see this column from you today, so glad you're back but sorry you've had a bad time of it lately. Have had a share of that myself the last couple of weeks with medical stuff cropping up totally unexpected and all that goes with it. Like you with doom scrolling sometimes it all is a bit much. But here in NC today it's nice and warm with sunny skies so it all looks better.
    Take good care and so happy you're back and sharing that marvelous picture. It brings forth so many thoughts as to the moments in history it has been witness to.

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    1. So sorry Marge to read you have been on a downer of health also. Yes we need to celebrate the days of blue skies and a better outlook even though fleeting at times. Every day seems to be another treasonous and jolting shocker. Poor Ukraine. Poor Gaza. Children in body bags break my heart. Crimes against humanity. We have lost our way.
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