Checking in with you, my dear blogmates.
I'm dealing with a lot of exhaustion, though my last two specialist check-ins were good for my age and overall condition, i.e. just north of falling apart completely.
My days are unpredictable and sometimes the little battles that used to be a breeze overwhelm me.
(1) A breakdown between the provincial overseer of senior drug benefits and my clinical pharmacist and my regular pharmacist and me in the middle flailing around without my suddenly uncovered pain drug. Unconscionable, but sorted. Finally. Bout seriously? I didn't need the stress.
(2) My car hit a pothole and is doing that weird noise thing under the passenger side. I finally booked an appointment with the mechanic and will deal with the logistics of leaving her there all day and finding my own staggery way home.
(3) The stress of the election I felt in my very bones. Squeaker. Truly. Carney meets with Cheeto today. Fingers crossed. Haven't watched it yet.
(4) Trying to plan an itinerary for my siblings who are ALL coming to visit me this month. Realizing my wee Toyoto won't fit them all and I'm too old to rent a larger vehicle. You read that right. Over eighties are deemed ga-ga and unable to navigate traffic. I have an accident free licence for 65 years (another you read that right). Millions of kilometres driven. Cheapest auto insurance on the planet.
Such things plunge me into a kind of paralysis. An unusual feeling for me.
I say to myself: what am I missing that is making me feel so helpless. Looking for my mother to take care of me? To manage it all like an adult.? Decided I need to work with the Spotify sub my daughter gave me and load on all my stuff from the Ipod that has been my good friend for years and years. So I started and am delighted at how Spotify is set up. It has all my weird stuff on board. Delightful. It's like listening to my playlists it all over again for the first time as I listen to Ella and Beethoven and the Irish Kings and Oscar Peterson (eclectic I am). And oh yes a new artist I saw on PBS Sierra Hull, if you're a fan of mandolin - she's first class bluegrass.
So some pics from today when I went up to my deserted ocean and enjoyed the birds and the ever-rolling sea which always grounds me.
I'll catch up with you all now.
I always marvel at the color of the sky there in your photos. So very blue and so beautiful. The weather looks quite good on that particular day. We are having warm and cold days here in NC so one never knows what to wear. But in the scheme of things now that is a nothing problem.
ReplyDeleteAll good wishes to you and your siblings for a wonderful get together. And lots of fun to boot.
Not renting to over-eighties! That's discrimination.
ReplyDeleteLove your grounding photos. The sight, the sound, the smell of the ocean working its magic...
ReplyDeleteBeautiful beach photos. I'm very glad you got the pain meds sorted. Are all the siblings arriving at once? Can one of them rent a car at the airport?
ReplyDeleteYou must be very excited about your siblings' visit, even if the logistics aren't quite right. With such beautiful blue seas and skies, we can pretend all is right in the world.
ReplyDeleteOh, wonderful photos. I need to go to the beach too, but I have no car, it's npot that far, but going there by bike is not advisable as the roads are too dangerous, and doing so by bus is time consuming and troublesome. But I'll get there, only not today.
ReplyDeleteI think the renters-out of cars should look at your dirving history instead of at your birth certificate.
The ocean does ground me as well. I spent a week down the shore in March. It was literally heaven; me and my dog at a house a block from the ocean. The whole time I was there, I felt no anxiety or stress. I try and remember that feeling when I'm home, and am being overwhelmed.
ReplyDeleteHope you and your siblings have a wonderful time together!
So much on your plate right now. No wonder you are tired. Sometimes making decisions feels impossible. But here you are still going and doing! Amazing.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you are exhausted though it is understandable. Your skies are brilliant, I hope the visit is fabulous!
ReplyDeleteI'm wondering if you can rent your car through your insurance agency. That's how we do it here, even those of us who are under 80. AAA handles the rental agreement and covers the insurance for the rental, too. Our last rental had a windshield mishap. AAA took care of it and I paid them the regular deductible. I just booked a drive and fly trip with them. The tickets for the plane and the rental for the van, all taken care of with one phone call.
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a wonderful time with the siblings.
ReplyDeleteAnd your sea and sky photos are gorgeous. I must get myself to the sea
You do have a lot going on now and certainly a pothole hit and dealing with bureaucracy (pharmacy issue) certainly are not helpful. But, listening to music and enjoying those beautiful sea views must have been relaxing. Hope the upcoming siblings visit works out well for all.
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