Swimming in the Sea of Me(me)

Over at Nick's I was struck by his rare participation in a meme and also by the fact that us bloggy buddies can be so alike. So here goes my version of this:

I am: an outside of the box personality, hopelessly sentimental and optimistic, veering at an accelerated pace towards a world made by hand and from scratch. Never bored.

I want: more than anything: contentment and simplicity. I'm most content when by the ocean, with a good book or knitting or conversation, dinner cooking on the wood stove, vegetables growing in the meadow, fresh fish for tea and clothes flapping on the line.

I have: my own house with more than enough land around it, my own hill, a stream, a woodlot that will long outlast me, many friends of both genders, reasonably good health,and a mind that never lets me down.

I wish: there could be far less religion in the world and more compassion. And the #1 biggie: more empowerment for women in all aspects of their daily lives so that reproductive choices would be a non-issue. And biggie # 2: Respect given and received. As a matter of course.

I fear: Since childhood: nuclear annihilation and global destruction. Guns. Rage. Foaming at the mouth fundamentalists.

I search: for loving acceptance of others, a deeper spiritual grounding.

I wonder: And am awed by: the minescule, beautiful everyday things: a flock of Canada Geese in the sky so in harmony with each other and their surroundings, the budding of the trees every spring, the bulbs coming up. How the ocean feels between my toes, how my dog can read my mind, how life is more contented when I respond with love and not the old worn out reactions and perceptions.

I regret: Not working harder at my marriage by communicating more openly and freely. But overall, looking back, very little regrets. My life has made me what I am. And I like me.


I love: My daughters, my granddaughter, my nieces, my many friends. Newfoundland. Dark roast coffee in the morning. Opera. Good books. Paintings. Walking in the rain. Sailing on the ocean. Breathtaking scenery. So much more and: Being Alive.

I always: offer gratitude every single hour of every single day for my life, for the rich buffet it presents me, for being aware and in the now.

I usually: Take a few minutes every morning to meditate. And never miss a sunset, if possible.

I am not: a downer or jealous of anything you might have or are. A pessimist, a scrooge or rich.

I dance: whenever I feel like it. More of us should. I love dancing at a real dance when others can participate. Dancing would bring world peace if the rules of engagement dictated that people had to dance with each other before they declared war on each other.

I sing: at the drop of a hat and when asked or not asked. I hum annoyingly too. I love performing with a song.

I never: attend church, drink alcohol, overeat, go braless, ski, listen to rap, spectate at sports, gamble, do up your dishes or go shopping. Or take anything or anyone for granted.

I rarely: put limits on what I can do, shop for anything that isn't second hand or on line, take pharmaceutical medication or get hair cuts.

I cry: a lot but in private. Very seldom publicly. Though did recently.

I know: about alcoholism, eating disorders, denial, spirituality, forgiveness, responsibility and owning my own mistakes.

I need: more intellectual exchanges, to be more confident with who I am, to accept love more freely and to give it without expectations. To take myself less seriously. To laugh long and hard at myself when I get a little too pompous.

I should: I hate this word. I have a saying stuck to my mirror:

Please! Please! Please! Don't let me should on myself today!