Wednesday, June 09, 2010

My Mother, Myself


Photo today of sunset with the longliner coming in.

It was one of those moments. I was out walking Ansa after supper and she was running in that wonderful joyous way she has, big grin from ear to ear, looping around me to thank me and barrelling off again only to paddle for a while in the bay, then a gallop over a grassy crest to chase some sandpipers and back again to me.

I sit on a rock and look at the water.

And my mother pops into my head. A mother who died far too young.

She loved nature, she loved the sea, she loved dogs.

I thought: Oh she would have enjoyed this. The longliner coming in with a load of fish. The sunset just beginning to set up her easel. The dog in ecstasy, the tang of the ocean in our lungs. The heat of the day forcing the sudden growth spurt of the beach flowers to reds and purples.

And for the first time since she died, I thought: isn't this something to hug close to my heart from here on in:

I am my mother.

16 comments:

  1. I can't say that with conviction like you do.

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  2. What a gorgeous photo and a beautiful post.... thank you :)

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  3. Yes, beautiful, WWW!
    It (sort of) reminded me of a line in a song by George Michael - "Jesus to a Child":
    So the words you could not say
    I'll sing them for you
    And the love we would have made
    I'll make it for two

    He wrote it referring to a lover who had died.

    I've had similar thoughts about my own mother (& my Dad) - how she would have loved to see all the things I've seen since living in the USA - s0 I'm doing it for both of 'em.
    :-)

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  4. Gorgeous.
    Your mother's heart kept you alive before you were born. Now your heart keeps your mother alive after her death.

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  5. A precious moment to be savoured.

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  6. A special moment to treasure! Lovely photo of the sunset!

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  7. T:
    Oh thanks for those beautiful words. I will cherish them. They say it all for lost friends and lovers and family members, don't they?
    XO
    WWW

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  8. Nick:
    Yes, a sparkle of enlightenment.
    XO
    WWW

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  9. Thanks GM - especially coming from an artist such as yourself.
    XO
    WWW

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  10. Twain:
    I had never thought of it until that moment!
    XO
    WWW

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  11. Nora:
    There might be others you might remember as you see something beautiful they would have loved?
    XO
    WWW

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  12. oh wonderful thoughts! I am my mother, too, in much the same way and love it! You said it so well.

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